Son of a bitch!
Curses and hellfire and damnation.
Blast.

Dear Bastian,

How about you GROW A PAIR AND FUCKING TEXT ME BACK!
It's not tricky, it's not hard.
A simple yes or no will do.

You're being a dick.

Sincerely,
Dawn

Haha, Kasper and I are going on Jude Law hunt in Elsinore tomorrow. Oh, yeah <3

Did you know Jude Law is at Kronborg in Elsinore these days performing as Hamlet? Jude Law is 5 km from where I'm sitting right now. Jeez.
Me and Lou' have definitely considered camping outside Kronborg these days, oh, it would be fun <3.

In other news: I might have a job coming my way. Full time. I'm calling them today. Exciting!

Also, yesterday I read Coraline by Neil Gaiman, it's pretty good.
Today I'm reading Le Vie Sexuelle de Catherine M. Not in French though.

I think I might bake cookies today.

There are so many things I'd like to do, but I just can't find much motivation.

- I want to find a full time job. I can't find motivation to write my resume and applications.
- I want to get into shape again. I can't find motivation to go to the gym.
- I want to get my driver's license. I can't find motivation to actually join a course and spend the money.
- I want to take a English A-levels so I have more options in what I want to study. I can't find motivation to research and find a class.


Yeah, I'm just whining. I wish I still had school after the summer then at least I'd have something to do.

Why the Hell does everything have to be so complicated? I'm sick and fucking tired of it!
I don't understand why it should be so hard? Why can't you just go "Hi, I think you're cute and I might kinda like you, what d'you say we figure out if we got something?"
That lin would make my entire life so much easier.
Jeez.

In short -
Met a guy. Bastian.
Turning 21.
Steiner kid.
Cute like you wouldn't believe.
Blond and tall and skinny with stubble.
Plays the violin.

I might be interested, idk. Knowing me I already am.

Somehow I think that Ford (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy) and Crowley (Good Omens) would get on surprisingly well.
It must be something with the teeth/smile thing, and their patience with englishmen (okay, so Aziraphale isn't british, but he might as well be).

Just a random thought.

Final exam tomorrow, then I'm done with school! Well, gymnasiet (High School) anyway.
Math A level, oral exam. Question will be drawn at 10.30 am I will be Student and plus one very nifty hat exactly one hour later at 11.30 am.

I
Can't
Wait!

So in spite of it's been a great weekend I'm feeling rather down, and dejected, and lonely.
And it's stupid 'cause all I need a boy to appreciate me and make me feel special, and I don't want to feel like that!
Jeez, it's all Peter's fault. We had a great date and I thought he was really interested but then he doesn't really text me and communication just kind of stopped, and I just don't wanna bother but it still hurts a bit, 'cause I really liked him and I really thought he liked me.
And then I still have this stupid crush on a (read: another) simon, from musical and that's just confusing and making me feel like I'm 15 again.
And then at Elværket I met tall-one and I guessed I'm kind of spoiled 'cause he always pays attention to me, and he did and I'd missed him because I haven't seen him in awhile, but after his gig he was talking with this girl and they kissed a bit and it really hurt me and I don't know why!
Today I talked to him a bit online and it helped and I asked him if we should get coffee sometime soon since it's been awhile, and he said he'd see if he had time. I know he's busy but I just felt blown off. I'm just too sensitive these days.
In my friday-night dawning depression I also texted Simon the musician and he did answer the next morning and I texted him back and then he never answered.

I'm feeling like I'm at a dead end, guy-wise. I'd like a boyfriend, it's been awhile, actually it's been more than a year since I've had an actual boyfriend, and I've been burnt a few times since then, and now Kristin has a great boyfriend, and Emil and Amanda are back together. I'm just lonely.
It sucks.

Okay, so I stole this from vampiric_mcd


The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.

2) Italicize those you intend to read.

3) Underline the books you LOVE.

4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them ;-)

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Many of the books I intend to read are glaring at me from my shelves xD This summer I really need to catch up on my reading.
Awhile ago Kasper and I went a bit crazy in the basement of a goodwill store buying books so I have Dumas, Shakespeare, Kerouac and Tolstoy in a pile on my desk.
Also I've decided I want to read a lot of the classic literature, unfortunately most of it is quite heavy reading so I'll wait 'till I'm done with my exams.

In other news

FOOTBALL!
Denmark-Sweden tonight at 8. A BIG game for many reasons.
Firstly, it's the qualification game for the World Championship.
Secondly, it's the 100th game between Denmark and Sweden (it's a arch-enemy-thing, in the Middle Ages we were at war - now we try to beat the snot out of them when we play football).
Thirdly, it's the first game against Sweden since the catastrophic game a couple of years ago, where DK got the score up from 0-3 to 3-3 and the judge awarded DK a penalty for something and a spectator ran out on the field and attacked the judge! He was a Danish fan and the game was in Parken and so the judge ended the game in Sweden's favor 3-0 and banned the Danish national team from playing in Parken for awhile.

Okay so the short version:
Game. Denmark-Sweden. World Championship. BIG DEAL!

ETA:
Halftime. 1-0 in Denmark's favor!
Our goalie Thomas Sørensen made a brilliant save of a penalty shot. The goal was kind of lucky since a Swedish defense fucked up, and Thomas Kahlenberg scores.
Dennis Rommedal burnt an easy goal when Lars Jacobsen makes a good layup.

One thing (among many) I learned by being the youngest sister of three, is how to be annoying and charming at the same time.
I'm not sure if it's a good or a bad thing, but it's definitely fun :D
I can tease people, hide their things, correct them all the time, manipulate them and a lot of other things, but because I somehow manage to be "cute" while doing it people think it's charming and fun, as well as annoying. I'm girl enough to admit I'm being a pain, but it's so much fun xD I also think it's something I do a lot when I'm flirting

In other news, AT exam yesterday got 10 :D Woo! I have my chemistry exam on monday and I'm so gonna day, especially if I keep procrastinating when I should be studying.
I have to go to work in 2 hours.
And Peter hasn't contacted me, I'm torn if I should text him or if I should wait.
Eh, I think I'll throw him a text, just to keep contact.

I've got pancakes in the oven, and Orange Sky on the speakers, a cat on me bed and rain on the roof. It's quite peaceful.
I have to go to work in 3 hours, and I really should be studying chemistry. I have studygroup tomorrow.

Also, I am a fool for love. But this time I have a good feeling about it (and not just an 'in-love' feeling, though that might come too, if I dare).
I went on a date monday night, and it was wonderful and he's fantastic. I might see him friday, I really hope so.

<3

(also, I should make a tag for 'love' just because I'm such a romantic)

er træt af at ordne eksamensnotater nu, vil sove.
Og tænke på Peter <3

So me and my friend Kasper have spent the entire night watching old musicals from Espergærde Ungdomsskole.
Lykkeby (musical version of the American movie Pleasantville) and Sidste Chance (about the life of H.C. Andersen) to be specific. It's hilarious to see people you know in all the small roles, back when they were young and skinny :P (*cough* Jørstad and Kuno *cough*)
I really miss doing the musical. I think I'll join next year as well, and then I can bail if I don't have the time.

Exams: I'm now done with all the ones in writing. 3 left until I graduate. Math, Chemistry and AT. Math and Chem on A-levels, jeez.

Boys: I have a crush. Had a crush, I'm not sure anymore xD There is a guy I find kind of interesting but I don't know. It's not worth the trouble it's bound to cause.
On the other hand Kasper told me one of the guys from musical asked Kasper if I liked him (the guy), 'cause apparently he's kind of interested, which would explain the hitting me I guess (that's right not hitting on, but just hitting). These guys act like they're 6, I swear. I'm not into him, I think he's quite strange, but now there's the possibility, I don't know.
I just think it'd be nice to get a kind-of boyfriend soon.

I have candles burning in my window. It's the 4th of May, which is the anniversary of Denmark's liberation after WWII- 4th of May 1945.
I'm feeling strangely touched, looking at the candles in my window and the dusk behind them.

My great grandfather was a tailor during WWII. He printed fliers in his shop against the Germans and one day the Gestapo came and took him away. I don't know which year but it was thankfully near the end of the war, my grandfather told me they (him and his brother and their mom) didn't know where he were until he was suddenly home the 9th of May on my grandfather's birthday. Must've been a few years later.
They sent him first to the Frøslev camp, and then they sent him to Dachau in Germany but by then the Russians were already nearing the camp, so he wasn't there long.
All the prisoners were transported to Sweden by the White Buses to get medical help and be fattened up before they could go back to their families.

My great grandfather came home and took up painting but according to my grandfather he was never the same.
I can't remember my great grandfather but I'm eternally grateful to all the freedom fighters and all the brave men and women who gave their lives in the war.

There are no words for how much I HATE the Aiden/Carrie-ark in Sex and the City. I HATE IT WITH A FIERY PASSION!
ARGH!

I turned 19 this Saturday :)
I'm also sick blah
and there's only like 27 school days left of the year! Then there're exams and then I'm done with high school!!!
And I have a potential date Saturday with Simon the Musician <3

I just spent the last 30 minutes talking to my sis on the phone.
To summarize what was said: "all guys are assholes, they're not worth your time. If you find a guy who's not an asshole, he was an asshole to someone else before you. "
I'm so over that guy now. Man, I'm glade I never used his name, he's not worth having a permanent mark on my livejournal. Now he's just that asshole-guy.
I'm totally, completely done with him.

Okay, so I've calmed a bit down, and got a bit perspective on things today.
Well, I kept busy so I wouldn't have to think about it and hugged Briggs for like 5 minutes and sat with G-Simon for like 10 and laughed with some friends and it helped a lot. I just really needed those hugs today.
And it also helped that he wasn't there today.
It didn't help that Kasper has apparently told Lasse that we're dating, so I had to talk around that without giving anything away.

So, yeah, okay. The thing is I've been seeing this guy and I got the feeling it was really going somewhere but I wanted to make sure so I sent the guy a message asking if he wanted maybe to make me and him an us. And then he didn't answer and yesterday he told me in person that he didn't mean to give me a me-and-him idea and then that was that. He didn't say anything else! And I just felt totally cheated out of an explanation, but I was kind of burying my feelings there so I just went "all right." and we went out drinking a group of us, and it was great fun. Then I spent the night at his place (don't ask me why).

So today I got thinking that he really did cheat me of an explanation.
We've been seeing each other regularly for a few weeks and the first time we talked for like 3 hours and the second time we played in the snow and our mutual friend told me the the guy thought I was really sweet. And we had dinner at his and he asked me what we 'were'! and I said idk and said 'what do you think?' and he said idk and we didn't talk about it anymore but we went to a friend's place and cuddled on the couch and went home together, and people had just kinda accepted we were dating. But then since that weekend it's been different and I don't know what happened! I though everything was going fine!
I'm so confused.
I mean at least I'm not in love with the guy (I was really careful of that) but I really liked him and I could see a thing there. I think we'd be good together and then he just pulls something like this!

But!
I'm gonna ask him to talk sometime this week and I'll try to be cool and non-emotional and explain that I'm really confused and what his deal is asshole.

That's it. I'm done with it. Done with boys, done with love, done with it all.
It's all meaningless anyway. I refuse to be disappointed again, I refuse to cry over yet another boy.
As of typing moment I have no expectations.
As of these words I won't fall in love again.

Is feeling a bit sad. Why? 'Cause I made a bunch of pancakes for 3 of my friends, including a boy I'm kind of seeing and like and it's nice enough and then they all leave all at once, and I'm all alone and the boy didn't even want to stay for a bit :( I just wanted him to see my house cause he's never been to my place and I've been to his lots. And then he just leaves, and yeah, okay he has to work tomorrow, but c'mon, why does it always have to be me? and why wouldn't he want to stay for a bit?

I'm counting on Kate Nash to cheer me up but I still feel like crying.

Happy pancake-day! :D